Sad, tentative and sick.

I haven't showered in days. I don't care.

I feel like hell and it sucks.

This Pema Chodron quote is resonating,

"When we start to meditate or to work

with any kind of spiritual discipline,

we often think that somehow we're

going to improve, which is a subtle

aggression against who we really are.

...Meditation practice isn't about

trying to throw ourselves away

and become something better.

It's about befriending who we are already."